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I am continually baffled when I learn my ranking in people's list of friends. I suppose I must rank my friends at some level (even if it's just subconsciously). Some people are more obviously ranked (Bill is pretty much #1 these days, in case you missed that memo). Spazz ranks pretty high on that list, too. But people's general order and ranking is amazingly fluid—I spend time with a lot of people, but I don't have that many super close friends.
Today I was waking with Spazz when she told me that I'm her closest friend in Seattle. I was more than a little surprised. In thinking about it, it sort of makes sense, but I would have thought her other friend who she knew when she moved out here would have ranked higher than I.
I don't think I lack confidence, so why am I surprised when people esteem me higher than I thought they would?
Today I was waking with Spazz when she told me that I'm her closest friend in Seattle. I was more than a little surprised. In thinking about it, it sort of makes sense, but I would have thought her other friend who she knew when she moved out here would have ranked higher than I.
I don't think I lack confidence, so why am I surprised when people esteem me higher than I thought they would?
posted by granola girl at 9:51 pm
1 Comments:
Maybe you are surprised by your 'ranking' by your friends because you don't spend a great deal of time contemplating it. You are busy being a friend to others and not about how others may see you.
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